i used to eat butterflies

my cats like to curl up into balls and bite things (hair, hands, etc.)

it’s the circle of life

well this is the last picture of lily i’m ever going to take

we’re putting her down today

no regrets

just cats

but seriously she’s so fucking cute

ugh posting this is making me sad

just because she’s dying doesn’t mean she’s not fat and adorable though

lily update because you all care

one of her siblings had to be put down because the disease got to be too much for him
lily’s sick and tired and has a fever but she’s keeping in there
basically, her lungs are going to start filling up with fluid soon and she won’t be able to breathe
she’ll get even more sluggish and her body will begin to shut down on her
there’s no cure, it’s fatal
she’s either going to die in the next few weeks or months or it’s going to get so bad for her that we’ll put her down
so i don’t know what’s going to happen
i’m just trying to play with her and keep her happy for as long as possible
and i know i haven’t really said anything, but i honestly love you guys so much for sending messages and being so kind to me
it means the world to me, it really does

but why do i exist

so, lily has feline AIDS

it’s not like she’ll die tonight or tomorrow

but if she gets sick, it’s going to be bad

and idk if my family can afford it if she does get sick

so we’re going to take care of it for now

but we might have to put her down if she gets really really sick

i don’t want her to be in a lot of pain

sophie ran away about a year ago

we haven’t even had lily a year

i’m too emotional to lose pets so often

lily is sick (but getting better???? the veterinarian won’t call us back about her tests)

and is also watching “hometown renovation” on hgtv